rollercoaster

and you’re dead

no, but you feel dead

you wish you were dead

anything to escape that feeling

then you’re numb,

you can’t feel anything

and nothing can touch you

isn’t this what you wanted all along?

but you’re lonely

oh, so lonely

then there is a spark, a stranger’s glance, a flutter in your stomach

and everything comes flooding back

the sun comes out, you’re back on track

you feel it all, everything, in technicolour

you’re falling again,

falling

f

a

l

l

i

n

g

for him, for her, for everyone

his smile, his laugh, the gleam in his eye when he talks to you

the way his whole face lights up when you walk into the room

you know this feeling but you can’t stop it,

there’s that familiar ache in your chest

and

you can’t eat

or sleep

or think

or do anything

anything

and you try to eat but you can’t taste anything

and you try to sleep but you’re not sleeping

and you dream but you’re living your wishes in your sleep

and you wake up and

do

it

all

over

again.

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